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✶ 𝕍𝕠𝕚𝕕𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕖 ✶
Mhachi Scholar
disabled gay ffxiv artist
[aka: washed-up Twitch Partner @lottieblix.bsky.social]
they/them 🏳️⚧️
i: @burgeaux.bsky.social
ko-fi.com/voidmagexiv
#voidmagexivart
- Today has been the most insane emotional roller coaster. I am exhausted, but very grateful 🥺
- Thank you all so much for the support! We are actually getting closer to making this decade-long dream a reality 🥹 Thank you so much! Please share if you can! gofund.me/80f047f8
- Also getting off of twitter has been infinitely better for my mental health, but it also completely obliterated the vast majority of social connections I had. I can’t do 1 on 1 conversations, it overwhelms the fuck out of me. Twitter made friendship accessible. Now it’s just an impossibility really
- I’m getting married! A lot sooner than originally planned, so we desperately need some help to pull it off 😭
- Once again I must apologize for vanishing, but my body, health, & ability have degraded rapidly over the last 3 years, & it's been terrifying. On the bright side: the love of my life is now with me & we're getting married. We could use help on all fronts. gofund.me/80f047f8
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- Thank you
- I shouldn’t be even remotely surprised by this, but something about posting my gfm on my main out of desperation and having it get almost zero engagement is sending me into a despair spiral worse than I’ve had in a long while. It really feels as if I never even existed and it’s weird.
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- Unfortunately not much going on over there. That part of my life is basically over at this point 😭
- I’m not upset that people don’t remember me or care about me after disappearing for years. I’m upset that things got so bad that I had no choice but to disappear for years because I can barely manage even just getting out of bed each day.
- It’s frustrating because as much as I had support from my community, what I needed was actual hands on, in person support. I made a decent income but never enough to hire like… a personal assistant or housekeepers lol I literally just needed help feeding myself and getting out of bed 💀
- It’s so fucked up to work my fucking ass off to achieve something… anything, with this busted ass body. But I can never sustain it by myself. Everything always inevitably falls apart because my body can’t keep up. I don’t know what to do. I have lost so much and I don’t think I will ever get it back
- I know maybe it’s privileged as fuck to even have had any considerable notoriety at any point in my life… but I did also work for it, and I gave a great deal back to my community. It’s just extra painful because I didn’t give all of it up willingly. I just didn’t have the energy to keep going
