Don't make me tap the sign :P
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I get it though. It takes a lot of mental effort to work through the difficult feelings that come with creation. If it helps, no one has to know you secretly hate it, and guaranteed new people who haven't seen it will love it ;)
I wish artists a very: Stop saying your work looks awful. Each piece is a unique expression of your skills that you worked hard at and the quality is subjective. Love it for what it is, not hate it for what it could be. Find joy in the process, make peace with the result. You are awesome.