The Overwatch chunk is definitely just a problem I had noticed as well, and again all I can do is apologize. The last time we played together I felt bad after commenting on their friend's build in stadium and I stopped playing with other people after. I should have also reached out and apologized.

Again, I was intending to be funny or silly but went too far. I didn't realize I was coming off truly rude or condescending and I don't really have a defense for it. I thought we were just playing around and I wasn't really told otherwise. I'm still sorry for not realizing it myself.

the zef part is tricky. zef suddenly tried to organize a meetup with me in the general chat of my server and i felt obligated to try to make it happen despite us barely having spoken. when he mentioned being sick I bailed on the plan but he kinda stopped interacting with me after that- (cont)

- I truly became convinced that he didn't fw me at all after I bailed. I still got excited when he joined call that day, only to immediately leave and say he'd only rejoin if ali joined. I had hurt feelings over nothing and I handled them immaturely, I just wanted ali to confirm he didn't hate me

ali says they brought up feeling uncomfortable or that they didn't like certain things but truthfully they weren't as forward about it. in hindsight, I realize I was too stupid to see that I was being too much in those ways and again I can only apologize in hindsight :/

the part about speaking to someone else about me is an insane addition because I know who that person is, and they've blocked me like 3 separate times. Just because they made a new acc that I blocked first THIS TIME (which i think was after the conversation had happened anyway) doesn't mean anything

the "u hate me" part is also weird to me because that's clearly just a thing we said to each other all the time, and again I think I just misunderstood when was appropriate to use it and I'm sorry.

I can admit that I've been wrong in how I've interacted with people, especially when its laid out in front of me. If people still don't want to be friends with me after this thread you're completely valid. I just struggle with people in general, but its never been my intention to upset anyone.