Loopy
🐺 Living up to my name each and every day! @Mixedcandy fursuiter! | ❤️ @NexJql ❤️ | 39 years old | @LoopyDaWolf = Telegram | Loopy#6642 = Discord | Bark! Woof!
- I met @coopertom.bsky.social!
- Im multiplying
- I could not suit for very long. I felt like i was going to pass out. Need food.
- The reason people see me as a blackhole of negative emotions is because I am. I can't find something in my own life to be happy about, so I leech it from others. Which is unhealthy, so, I need to find a better way. Realizing I have a problem is the first step to fixing a problem.
- I think someone fell asleep in one of the bathroom stalls at FWA.
- Now that I've had time to process some emotions I realize that Im barely able to function because my 'cup' isn't full enough to give out more emotional or mental energy than I have. So if I want to start fixing my emotional issues I need to find a way to fill that cup somehow.
- FWA: furries walking around
- People i knew write right. Life would be better if I were gone.
- Im miserable. I wish I could undo all the mistakes I've made.
- I've thought about jumping off my hotel balcony
- I need to contact a therapist immediately. I need help.
- FWA: the only con where you can see rogue lines form while listening to Slavic techno being played. Fantastic.
- Almost to FWA
- Am I an asshole? Yeah. When I'm disrespected and not given the time or respect I think I deserve, then yes, I'm an asshole. And i wont apologize for standing up for myself.
- I'm going to start standing up for myself. I am going to take what I want, when I want, and how I want. I'm not asking permission anymore. I am going to start exuding confidence as best as I can.
- Never assume anything you say to anyone in confidence will not be used against you and that your "friends" wont turn on you in an instant. Always be wary of anyone who calls you their "friend" unless they prove it, because they're most likely lying.
- I hate that I keep getting kicked out of social groups because of my autism. It's infuriating and I end up being lonely all the time. I really just want to make a whole new online persona and start over. I wish I could undo all the mistakes I've made in my life and get a do over.
- Do I want to start pointless beef online and try to ruin someone's reputation or should I just let it go?
- Being told "We'll be friends no matter what happens" and then being blocked by said person only hours later is a wild turn of events.
- The more I understand my autism the more I wish I never had it.
- I've never really put a lot of thought into ending my own life but I think for the first time I'm hitting the point where I wonder if I really should and how. I don't feel like I have anyone I can vent to or say anything to, so I hold it all in.
- There are times when I really wonder if I'd rather be better off dead instead of causing my family and myself so much frustration and pain. It would just be easier on everyone if I were not alive.
