Widow’s garble
- Last night after midnight a friend phoned my number by mistake. And when it rang I just felt confused. There is no more bad news to come because I'm totally alone now. And no one will ever ring me with urgent news in the middle of the night again. Is that a good thing? #grief #alone
- Yup.
- People keep confusing me with the person I was when he was here. Apparently I'm always busy and out all the time. So who is that person who sits on the sofa alone most nights? #grief #alone #widowed #partnerloss
- Wouldn't it be nice if people's sympathy lasted as long as your grief? But I'd barely started grieving when the kindness stopped. #grief #widowed #bereavement #loss
- I spend so much time writing responses in my head to glib but hurtful messages from unbereaved friends. And then I just respond with a heart, because I know they'll never understand. Until they have to. #grief #lifeinpieces #widowed
- Heartache was just a poetic word before I lost him. Now I feel a pang in my chest most of the time that the word describes perfectly. #grief #heartache #bereavement #widowed
- Some people I hardly know invited me to a concert, met me there and gave me a lift home. So kind - and it really helped me. If only more people were so thoughtful instead of turning away I might feel like I had a fighting chance of living through this. #grief #kindness #loneliness #despair #hope
- Grief feels like wearing punishingly uncomfortable new shoes all the bloody time, while longing to kick them off and wriggle into your favourite comfy slippers. But someone has thrown those slippers away and you must trudge on in the painful shoes for ever. #grief #partnerloss #widowed #bereavement
- Beautifully put...
- When people say they didn't want to say something or whatever because it would remind me of him it makes me want to laugh (hollowly, of course). As if there is ever a moment I'm not thinking of him. #grief #widowed #bereavement
- Having couples to visit is difficult. Their easy chat about shared memories and plans, little in jokes... All so hard to witness once your person is gone. #grief #widowed #partnerloss
- Some days in this grief game are unremittingly bleak and this is one of them. I have simply had enough of him not being here. #grief #widowed #partnerloss
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- Thinking about the time, five months into this, when I messaged someone saying I hadn't seen anyone for several days. She replied: 'Must be hard for you when you get your social energy from people. I think I am the opposite - an introvert - and too much time with others exhausts my social battery.'
- This chimed strongly with me, especially ‘normal’ people's rose-tinted view of being alone. #grief #loneliness #partnerloss #widowed
- So tired of constantly having to be grateful to people for spending time with me, now that the person who actually wanted to be with me isn't here any more. #grief #partnerloss #widowed
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- Every day feels like a battle. Just organising simple outings or managing complicated projects, it's all so much harder without him. #grief #partnerloss #widowed
- Just noticed that in my work day book I wrote that yesterday was 4th March 2023. Because I can't actually accept that time has carried on since I lost him. #grief #partnerloss #widowed
- Until I lost my love I hadn't realised how unempathetic most people are. The fact that I have absolutely no one in the world now and how scary that is, is completely unimaginable for most it seems. Lucky them. #widowed #grief #loneliness #isolation
- Reposted by Widow’s garble"Grief never leaves you, you just get better at hurting..." #widow #thegriefspot #thegspot #griefisadirtyword #normalizegrief
- Someone decided to show me an app you can use so your loved ones can monitor where you are to make sure you're safe. There is no one to care where I am any more but she genuinely didn't understand why it was upsetting me. Then she suggested it would mean the police could find my body! #partnerloss
- I asked a friend how her widowed stepmother is doing. Fine apparently – because she has got herself out to the cinema and been to the dentist. We drag ourselves through the motions of normal life because we have to, and our reward is that everyone thinks we're 'fine'. #widow #grief #lifeafterlove
- Currently working my through boxes of our stuff that were sent to storage two and half years ago when we thought we were embarking on an adventure to start a new life. Every single one, no matter how mundane the contents, is like a grenade set to go off in my heart. #grief #bereavement #partnerloss
- Beautiful and true.
- Reposted by Widow’s garbleMy grief is the same. I just cope with it better on a day to day basis now than I did at the start. #grief #loss #bereft #widowhood
